Blessed are the Peacemakers

"Blessed are the Peacemakers for they shall be called children of God."
~ Matthew 5:9


I visited the Pentagon this week and discovered that the US Air Force has a plane called the B-36 Peacemaker that is capable of carrying 86,000 pounds of bombs.  During the Cold War it advanced the policy of "peace through strength" or nuclear deterrence with the Soviet Union.  Does this strike you as ironic that a plane capable of carrying enough explosives to destroy and maim thousands of people is called a peacemaker?

I doubt this is what Matthew had in mind when he said that peacemakers would be blessed and called children of God.  Thomas Merton sums it up best, "The "cold war" is simply the normal consequence of our corrupt idea of a peace based on a policy of "every man for himself" in ethics, economics and political life.  It is absurd to hope for a solid peace based on fictions and illusions!  So instead of loving what you think is peace, love other men and love God above all.  And instead of hating the people you think are warmakers, hate the appetites and the disorder in your own soul, which are the causes of war.  If you love peace, then hate injustice, hate tyranny, hate greed - but hate these things in yourself, not in another (New Seeds of Contemplation, 122).   

Although Merton wrote specifically concerning the cold war, his words seem to be timeless in that they could be applied to the most recent political jousting that occurred during the debt ceiling debate.  Both the GOP and the Democrats approached the problem with self-righteous, moral indignation declaring the other side to be completely wrong in what "the American people want their elected leaders to do."  Neither side could concede that perhaps the other might have something to offer and lacked the courage to trust, because in order to trust one must believe in God.  Let me unpack that statement...

"It is not only our hatred of others that is dangerous but also and above all our hatred of ourselves: particularly that hatred of ourselves which is too deep and too powerful to be consciously faced.  For it is this which makes us see our own evil in others and unable to see it in ourselves." (Merton, 112)

The ferocity and rhetoric around how best to lower the deficit without shredding the social safety net involved scapegoating everyone that is not "us." Many news reports stated, the "government is filled with fraud and abuse" or "tax the rich, they can afford it" or "it is the immigrants who are stealing our jobs and spending our healthcare dollars..." Yet, did anyone ever pause long enough to think that perhaps the problem isn't from outside of ourselves but within each of us? Including those who claim to be Christians? In fact, many of the most pernicious debates could be boiled down to this one issue.

• Gay Marriage - we fear that allowing gays to marry will somehow make our own marriages less legitimate.  During the hearing on the "defense of marriage act" many of the christian witnesses made the outrageous claim that legalizing gay marriage would open the floodgates to polygamy and undermine the nuclear family, when in fact allowing these unions would result in greater stability and financial security. 
• Abortion - we fear that allowing women the choice to have an abortion will result in many unborn children being killed.  Yet this ignores the fact that women every day around the world seek out unsanitary, unsafe abortions because they have no legal alternative.  Indeed, what about the rights of those already born? Those born into squalor because our greed has robbed them of basic food and shelter?
• Immigration - we fear that our way of life, our families and cultural traditions that we hold most dear will be overrun by outsiders.  We perceive "them" as a faceless horde at the gates, just waiting to rush in, steal jobs, use scarce healthcare services, refuse to learn English...  Yet, what about the many contributions immigrants have made to our country?

All of these issues could fairly be summed up as a fear of the other, of those who are not like "us." We do not see that gay couples are our neighbors and co-workers.  We fail to recognize that someone who seeks an abortion could easily be our sister, daughter, or friend.  We do not remember that our nation is great because it has welcomed immigrants who bring it cultural diversity and innovation.

In order to recognize these truths, we must be able to stop hating others and that is only possible when we stop hating ourselves.  We hate ourselves and everything we do that is unjust, selfish and terrible, but the only way to break this cycle of hatred is through forgiveness.  Not just a simple apology, but atonement, or completely wiping the scoreboard and starting anew.  The only way this is possible is through the forgiveness of Jesus Christ who takes away our sins and gives us a fresh start.

The message of Christ has been so perverted in our society, that this simple yet profound truth has often been completely obscured.  Yet, it is the only way that we as individuals and as a society can have any hope of moving forward.  We need salvation and the promise that though we continue to fail and make mistakes, we are not condemned to judgement for our past wrongs.   Jesus offers forgiveness and the opportunity to trust other failed humans, because we know that we too have failed.  Forgiveness provides the ability to break the cycle of evil and hatred, not through destroying it in another, but recognizing and accepting the healing we so desperately need.

Not having a car...is really great

Last night I went out with a few friends in Dupont Circle for dinner and drinks.  We started at the Lucky Bar and then moved on to the Mad Hatter just down the street.  Washington, DC has a fairly comprehensive metro system and is also very walkable.  No need for a designated driver, no worrying about parking tickets/spaces, no need to worry about how I was going to get home.  It is marvelous...

After living in LA for so many years and dealing with traffic, I am realizing that I am in such a better mood without having to spend 2 hours a day fighting with other cars on the 10 freeway.  Here are some other things I've observed and enjoy about the city:

1. People watching - On the metro there are so many different people.  Women with really cute dresses and shoes, men in suits, kids, and tourists speaking all sorts of different languages.   It can get a bit busy during rush hour, but getting poked by an umbrella is a lot better than getting rear-ended by a car.
2. Window-shopping - As I mentioned, everyone walks so stores have really fascinating window displays to attract customers.  One of my favorites is Kramerbooks, they have all kinds of books plus a cafe/restaurant in the back.  There is also a Krispy Kreme right next to the Metro entrance and the hot sign is usually on, so many temptations!
3. Architecture - Many of the buildings have really ornate stone work with carved arches and spires.  St. Matthew's down the street looks like a small, red stone church from the outside, but the sanctuary inside has a glorious, gilded dome with an intricate mosaic depicting scenes from the life of Jesus. 
4.  History and Culture - I haven't even begun to explore yet, but this is a city filled with memories.  So many memorials dedicated to soldiers and past wars.  It is sobering to see the lists of the dead and to wonder who they were in life.  I think my favorite place so far is the Lincoln Memorial because the words of the Gettysburg Address ask us to renew our dedication to unity as a nation - fitting words in these divided times. 
5. Important people everywhere - Working on Capitol hill gives me access to the basement subway that connects the Senate, Capitol and House buildings.  Underground all of the buildings is a labyrinth of hallways and doorways all leading off to unknown locations.  I imagine this is what Hogwarts might be like with hidden stairways and secret chambers.  I've bumped into senators in the hallway and see the news crews covering hearings.  (I apologize for the vagueness here, I'm not supposed to give too many specifics on work).

Preparing to leave the City of Angels

Today was my last day attending Church of the Redeemer before embarking on a summer in Washington, D.C. I promised too keep people updated on my adventures "back east," so I am reopening my blog after a really long time away. For anyone I haven't told, I'll be spending 12 weeks working for the Senate to fulfill my internship requirement for school.

At the moment, life is pretty insane. I am attempting to get my room packed up while at the same time finishing final papers and assignments at UCLA. At times I just feel overwhelmed, but I'm trying to make time to say goodbye and have good closure with friends in South Los Angeles since when I return in the fall I plan to live closer to campus.

This transition feels like the end of a chapter in my life. In South LA, I've found incredible community and have been blessed to be surrounded by many great friends who have helped me grow and seek healing in many aspects of my life.

One thing I will miss is the throbbing rhythms of the city. The sound of ice-cream trucks and street vendors is so familiar now that I hardly notice it, and somewhere there's always a party happening with loud music playing all night. Almost every Sunday I ride my bike over to USC to play Ultimate Frisbee and pass by the beautiful roses and giant T-Rex at the National History Museum. Outside my window, the parrots have learned how to imitate car alarms and the dogs rarely stop barking. Its loud and sometimes obnoxious, but it is home...

But now it is time to leave on a new journey, to step out in trust, believing that God has something great in store for me. May I look forward in anticipation rather than fear of the unknown!